hhhhhh

there's so many things to ask for Lord
so many concerns and needs and desires and wants
but first..... i just have to breathe in the slightly stale pizza-tinted air here in upper archer and thaaaaaaank you from the bottom of my heart for every moment every heartbeat every soul every sprout in the ground and droplet of water falling on the windows.
you are a great and marvelous God. you are a supreme and awesome wonder and i worship you tonight in this old building and think of the dear sister so far away.....
God.
be in her.
be her comfort when she is afraid and unsafe inside.
she desires to live in the present, but Lord. do more than that.
help her to just be so static and electric with every passing moment.
that from the first crack of her eye opening in the morning her heart would sing to live for you. her soul would shine with a light that pushes her to want more and more abundant life.
let her heart not be troubled about fears involving chase and his wellbeing.
Lord. he is safe in the palm of your hand and let that same hand that holds him stroke caitlin while she waits patiently to be with Chase again. let them be close in spirit and that your sweet sweet peace would infuse her.
Lord be with her mind as she prepares for the celebration of her life that is coming up in June (!!!!!!) please lead her thoughts through and around creative ideas that make her happy and excited and let her preparation for this occasion be one of order and peace.
peace
peace
peace
peace Lord
that is what i ask for and i really hope you deliver it super quick and just always and always to my darling Caitlin. my sister, mother, partner and companion.
love,
Steph

beauty supreme...

father,

i haven't been very faithful in keeping up with the daily comings and goings of my friend steph. but i thank you so much for her and her presence in my life, even though were thousands of miles apart.

whatever struggles she's having, please be real and in the midst of that. thanks for her faith. whatever questions she's dealing with, bring her peace, even if there aren't answers. whatever difficulties she's having as an RC, give her patience. help her to be selfless and loving and real with people. bless her relationships. keep her safe so i can see her and hug her again.

help her to be herself.
don't let her run too dry, okay?
give her all those good things and blessings that you've promised us. she shows that she loves you more than almost anyone i've ever known. i know you'll bless that.

in jesus' name,
so be it.

steady.

my Lord! i cry out to you on behalf of my sister and cherished one, caitlin...
her experiences even in breathing are changing her as i sit here....
pinch her with a holy sign that you will be her encouragement.
that you will be her fire.
that you will cancel her fear.
that you will lift her to blessing.
that you will cause others to see yourself shining through her.
you have walked beside her, you have spoken to her face, you have enriched her life indeed!
Now, Lord, as you have promised, be her Great Shepherd and undo her impatience and anxiety. Undo any place in her that causes her to lose self control when she sits down to eat a meal.

allow your light to penetrate her darkness
and give her hope
hope and the fruit.
let her see how her presence is causing others to notice beauty of an ancient kind. the beauty of Grace. May your grace just shift her from her nook of fear.
and then catch her up in your warmth.
be in her team!
be in her sleep!
be in her food!
be in her music!
be in her prayers!
and hear mine, Lord Christ.

AMEN




p.s.
i am frustrated. i am disorganized. i need more sleep.
and there's this guy. hhhhhh.
i would like to surrender him to Him.

oh oh ohoh ohohohhohohohohohoh

You are faithful, God. Bless the actions of my dear friend Steph. please bring many people joy because of this wonderful, ridiculously wonderful human being.

give her the authenticity she so craves.
free her from fear.
laugh her into joy!
give her passions and desires for the future.
Encourage her as she no doubt influences lives as an R.C.

you love steph, so i pray your peace over here, strength on her and for your ruthlessness against everything that steals her joy.

in your name,
Amen (so be it).


p.s.
i need patience.
i need some freedom from anxiety
and i need some self control with eating.

ah lord GOD

Lord your dizziness is everywhere and your color is able to fill in our darkness or drabness...
give us eyes to see and ears to hear!
give us a passion for faithfullness and an eagerness for love love, more love!
God, forgive me for my selfishness in wishing my dear sister Caitlin Daniel to stay with me always and to never leave my side..
you have prepared her for Great Things and she is in your hand.
God, as she gets on a plane and fishes through her heart for the strength to make it over the sea, Lord, sit her on your lap and hum to her so softly and make it a dear time of hope.
she is anointed Lord. i know you made sure that happened before she set off, so
in Jesus' Name, get that darkness off her heart so that she may perfectly love you and worthily magnify your Holy Name!
make her feel ready for anything, capable, energized, awake, intentional.
help me to be faithful to her in prayer, God.
she is so precious to You.
You are with her.
You are there.
You Are.

AMEN

father, thank you for steph and for the joy our memories bring me. also, thank you for the anticipation of getting to see her soon!

please give her patience to finish out the week.
give her willingness to have great fun.
give her confidence in whatever she lacks it in.
and please, please give the team safe travel home.

help us love you,
Amen (so be it)

father, you are great.

i trust that you are doing a few things for steph right now:
- i trust that you are giving her patience for the treacherousness that is walkabout and all the hardships she's encountering.
- i trust you're giving her a love for her companions and helping her get closer to those with her.
- i trust you are giving her perseverance and physical stamina
- i trust you are giving her energy
- i trust you are growing her significantly.

if not, then please do.

thank you. we love you,
amen (so be it)